Pregnant Update

Well, I know I haven’t been on in a while.  I’ve had a hectic few months but I plan on doing this on a daily basis again.  I am now currently pregnant as of May and my dreams have gotten a lot different to say the least.  I find that I am more willing to fight whatever is coming after me in my dreams because I am aware that I am pregnant and want to protect my child.  I’ll start with a simple dream I had about 2 months in before we knew what the sex of our baby was going to be.

     There was a baby in a blue onesie laying on what appeared to be a changing table.  I was standing over this baby and I knew in the dream that they were my child and I had an overwhelming sense of happiness and warmth overtake me.  I wanted to figure out if my child was a boy or a girl so I started with the girl name.  I said “Sylvia Grace?” and my child just looked at me not really making a sound. I then said “Carter Thomas?” and my child laughed and giggled and then I knew he was a boy.

I woke up and it wasn’t until the very end of August that we found out that we were indeed having a boy.  Everyone except for my grandmother thought I was having a girl, but my boyfriend and I did really want a boy so it was definitely a pleasant surprise! 

I’ve had some nightmares but mainly now I am having weird food dreams; taco pizzas and broccoli with cheese seem to be the main two and typically I crave those foods the next day.

For now I will end here but will update with any interesting and new dreams I may have, thanks for reading!


This dream was very intense as well and also very vivid.  One other thing that you need to know about me is that I work in a profession where my appearance and attitude is everything so the part about my instructor is referring to, what I think is, my underlying fear of not being good enough.

I was with N when I was kidnapped and forced into a relationship with an older, very large, poor hygiene man.  This man also took my three dogs but later dumped them out in the middle of the woods hundreds of miles away from me.  I didn’t know how much time had passed but he was entering me in some sort of competition; I was getting ready with a man my kidnapper put in charge of me, when I walked out of the bathroom and said I’m done.  I am breaking up with him and I am done being here, then I just walked out.  The man said ‘d regret this but I just stuck my tongue out at him because I remembered what my instructor said about always being professional even when you’re not at the office.  I figured flipping him off would make me look bad.  I ran down the stairs and into the auditorium where, to my horror, my kidnapper had my twitter page up on the screen and was talking about how bad of a person I am and that I left him because he was fat.  I ran on stage and said he kidnapped me and that everything he was saying was a lie.  N came and gave me a hug and asked where the girls were…”they were gone…the other men released them into the woods far away.” I said to him.  Flash forward and I am hiking with a friend telling my story.  N and I broke up because of the pain of losing the girls, this is when my friend said “what if they just appeared here lol” and they did.  All three of them came trotting along towards me.  It had been five years, N had already settled down with someone else, but I found the girls and I was at least happy for that.

Thanks for reading! As always, what do you think?



This dream is a very personal one and I debated even writing about it.  I have been through a few abusive relationships in my life but this one was definitely the worst; I still have nightmares about it.  This was my dream last night

I was with, we’ll call him Q, and I was living in the house I do now.  Q was out collecting things to sell to make money (his two friends with him) and I was thinking of how to break up with him.  I called him multiple times and he never answered, this was very common because he often cheated on me, so I left a voicemail asking where he was.  Flash forward and I’m out with a friend at night, she was driving and we were going back to her house but I wanted to show her where I lived.  I took her down the street which looked normal until I go to my house.  It was almost like the street became a tunnel and there were houses just compacted in.  Imagine what you’d see in a movie about the future, one house after another compacted into this wall for saving space.  So we go inside and the back has this staircase that goes nowhere, we’re up by the clouds, and I see Q coming back this direction.  I called again on the phone as he came to the door, he was trying to talk to me but I told him to wait out there for my voice mail.  I basically told him I was done and he had to leave.  He got very angry and began telling me I was worthless and yelling at me very close to my face..I can still see the anger and hatred in his eyes.  Luckily though he walked away and I ended up getting back with N (my now boyfriend).

It was a very intense and vivid dream…panic attack..when I woke up I just touched N’s arm to reassure myself that I was out of that terrible place and that he really was the one sleeping next to me.  If you are ever in an abusive relationship, get out.  It is not worth the strain and stress it does on your mind and body, not to mention the life threatening abuse.  Anyway thank you for reading and as always what do you think?



This Smile Never Fades

This is the dream that I had last night.  It was a lot more vivid than the ones that I have been having lately and emotion was involved.  Today I feel a little more drained and tired but that’s what happens to me when I have these dreams.

In the dream the guy, Christopher, was my brother and he decided to go into the military.  When he was deployed, a huge attack happened to their base and only a few survived.  There was a big ceremony for the few that did and it was in a enormous auditorium filled from floor to ceiling with seats; only a little room at the front for a floor before the stage.  My dad gave me his ticket and he and my sister sat further back.  The Spokeslady expounded of bravery and other things and then we stood up and pledged allegiance but it wasn’t to an American flag.  It was black with some stars scattered through the middle.  Then the lady said only close relatives of the people who were in the service could come back and see if their relative survived.  I ran down the steps and onto the stage; “let Kristen through” the lady holding back the backstage curtain said.  Then there he was.  Christopher Hansen (which Hansen isn’t even my last name).  I hugged him so tight and he had a huge smile on his face; happy as always.  I told him how proud I was of him and I was surprised he was doing so well considering he lost his friends.  He just looked at me and said “I always do well sis, it was bad but this smile never fades.”

Then I woke up.

Thanks for reading and as always what do you think?


This was a very short and weird dream even for me and it happened the night before last (I have once again been very busy).  Nothing bad happened but it just had this post apocalyptic  feel to it.

This dream was an infomercial where a pastor kept talking about animal right. He kept saying “it doesn’t matter where you come from or what you believe, we can all help the innocent animals.”  *que the creepy sound effects  and weird video playing behind this wording*  Almost like a horror movie or like when in Willy Wonka they go down that tunnel in the boat and though nothing’s really going on it becomes creepier and creepier by what Wonka is saying with the music.  Just like that.  Creepy.

Thanks for reading and as always what do you think?


The dream starts out and I hadn’t seen N in a while so it was just Milah, one of our dogs, and I.  We were walking through this area, it looked like a war torn area with dilapidated buildings and broken trees.  Just a very unpleasent area and we were with a group of people; it was very dangerous because the person who was leading us I knew had bad intentions for us.  At one point we come across this alleyway and as we round the corner of the building Milah ran toward this one spot, under what I believe use to be an awning, and she began to dig.  She found this big thing of treasure and that is when the leader ended up catching up to us and he was very upset..he grabbed his gun and loaded two bullets.  He wanted credit for finding the treasure so he was going to kill Milah and I so he could take that credit.  I was running towards him and the shotgun when he pulled the trigger; the bullet was stuck!  I grabbed the barrel and began to wrestle him when he shot another round but again the bullet was stuck!  I ended up overtaking him and that is when N showed up and he asked what was going on.  I explained to him that “somehow we got stuck with this group of people and the leader of the group was trying to kill us and then Milah had found the hidden treasure that the guy was looking for.  Soooo he was going to kill us then I overtook him and here we are.”  N and I held onto the guy until the cops came and that was the end of the dream.

Intense dream! Thanks for reading and as always what do you think?

The X-Men

This is a dream I had last night and I wrote it down this morning for I did not have time to get on my computer and type it.  I do want to state that even though some of my dreams may not seem scary or even nightmare-ish, that there is a feeling of fear in all of them.  So a very normal situation will be filled with anxiety in my dream making it way worse than the normal situation is.  One other thing you will need to know about me for this dream is that I currently have two tattoos; on my right arm I have wording that covers from halfway up the belly of my forearm to the crease of my elbow.  On my left arm I have a prayer that covers the same area as the right.

In this dream N wanted us to get hamsters so we were talking to his little brother, C, about different cages and other things we may need for these little guys.  We knew that they could not be in the same cage because hamsters have a tendency of killing each other.  We ended up at the pet store looking at the hamsters when some girls came up and started talking to N, flirting with him right in front of me.  He noticed I was getting upset and he asked if I wanted to go see the X-Men movie, Logan, and of course I said yes. (I love comic book movies)  On our way there I looked down at my arms and my tattoos were slowly fading away and I couldn’t stop it from happening throwing me into a panic…

Then I woke up.

Thanks for reading!  As always what do you think?

Helping Hand

This dream was from yesterday night I was just super busy yesterday and did not get the chance to type it up on here soooo here we go!

People were living in this house with me and the house started to collapse slowly.  Somehow my phone got me safely to the ground but shattered so I couldn’t call for help.  I then began to pick people up from the house and carefully place them on the ground.  It took a lot of strength from me but I was able to save them.  When I got to the last group I asked them if they needed any help getting down to safety and one of them scoffed at me and said “we don’t need your help” and they all chuckled.  I just looked at them and said “it doesn’t make me a bad person to help others.  Just because I was able to get down on my own does not mean others can, I was just trying to help”  Then I walked away and that was the end of my dream.  *I must add the side note that the dream was rich in color mainly blue, yellow, green, and some red.  Very bright though, very vibrant.*

Short but sweet and I think it holds a message very dear to me which is, no matter who you are, you may need help someday; be kind always.

As always what do you think?  I hope you enjoyed!


Black and White Detective

So this blog is a little bit of test for me, I wanted to see if me writing them out on here would help my dreams not be as prevalent and well…it’s true!  Blogging my dreams has made me excited to wake up the next morning to tell my grueling nights tale but now I do not dream quite as often.  I am sleeping more sound which has never happened.  I was out of town the past few days but did not dream much of anything so I thought I would pull a dream from the old dream journal.  This one is one of my darker dreams and I had this one back when I was in high school.

The dream starts out with me on a street and everything is void of color.  I am a detective but of a very specific case, where everything was black and white, some people on this street had colorful clothes on and these were the people I was looking for.  You see we had three larger than life dogs on the loose and these people with the colorful shirts were in serious danger…the puppies of these dogs, well their soul, was trapped in the bodies of the colorful people and these large dogs were going to get them back.  So I walk past housing units and I hear a howl. It is a blood filled howl and I know the dog is close to the first people.  I spot them in the house, a mom, dad, and baby just gathered around the table loving life.  I ran into the house and began to warn them of their impending doom but like any reasonable person they did not believe me and thought me to be crazy. “Larger than life dogs…puppy souls! are you a lunatic?! Get out of my house!”  the man screamed.  I knew that if I did not get to safety that I too would be eaten by these dogs so I ran down the hall to the mans bathroom and hid.  Moments later I hear the glass crashing and the blood curdling screams of the family who was now torn to shreds.  I wait, patiently, as I do not want to interrupt the mother dog and her pup for her pup would be very hungry and I did not want to be the meal of choice.  I wait until I hear utter silence, the ear deafening kind of silence then I leave the bathroom and find the second family.  Everything happened all over again, they didn’t believe me and so I hid in the bathroom until I knew it was safe to come out.  Then the third house happened.  The people didn’t believe me and I hid in the bathroom.  The dog crashed in and killed everyone but then…no puppy.  There wasn’t a yelp of a young pup and everything just went dead.  I cracked open the door just to see down the hallway and there it was…we locked eyes.  This hell hound terrier dog.  It began to sprint down the hallway at me and I slammed the door but…what? this cannot be…the door turned into one of those flimsy catholic confession doors.  The kind with the intricate gauze type of window design made from the wood.  And then I see it.  As the dog pushes me with only the door between us on the floor and wall of the bathroom, teeth inches away from my face…I am in color.

Then I woke up.

I hope you enjoyed!  As always what is your opinion of this dream?  I would love to hear your feedback!


So this dream happened a few days ago and I wrote it down so I wouldn’t forget and could write it later in the day…ended up getting sick so, here it is now!

My now boyfriend (we will call him N from now on), N was in the military and had to go somewhere over in Africa and I was living in our house with the dogs just taking care of things until he came home. Well I ended up being able to go to Africa to visit him and he had a surprise for me so I booked the first flight.  When I got there he said he was going to be stationed in Wales and that i could finally be with him.  He also stated that we would be traveling the world and this made me more than gleeful!  At the same time though, there was this underlying stress because he was on the front lines for at least another month before he would be stationed in wales.  So I traveled back home and the dream ended with me packing and singing.

I know this one was short but at least it was a bit sweeter than my other dreams.  I’m really not sure why my mind chose Wales as the destination of choice but whatever works!

I hope you enjoyed and as always, what is your opinion?