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This dream is a very personal one and I debated even writing about it.  I have been through a few abusive relationships in my life but this one was definitely the worst; I still have nightmares about it.  This was my dream last night

I was with, we’ll call him Q, and I was living in the house I do now.  Q was out collecting things to sell to make money (his two friends with him) and I was thinking of how to break up with him.  I called him multiple times and he never answered, this was very common because he often cheated on me, so I left a voicemail asking where he was.  Flash forward and I’m out with a friend at night, she was driving and we were going back to her house but I wanted to show her where I lived.  I took her down the street which looked normal until I go to my house.  It was almost like the street became a tunnel and there were houses just compacted in.  Imagine what you’d see in a movie about the future, one house after another compacted into this wall for saving space.  So we go inside and the back has this staircase that goes nowhere, we’re up by the clouds, and I see Q coming back this direction.  I called again on the phone as he came to the door, he was trying to talk to me but I told him to wait out there for my voice mail.  I basically told him I was done and he had to leave.  He got very angry and began telling me I was worthless and yelling at me very close to my face..I can still see the anger and hatred in his eyes.  Luckily though he walked away and I ended up getting back with N (my now boyfriend).

It was a very intense and vivid dream…panic attack..when I woke up I just touched N’s arm to reassure myself that I was out of that terrible place and that he really was the one sleeping next to me.  If you are ever in an abusive relationship, get out.  It is not worth the strain and stress it does on your mind and body, not to mention the life threatening abuse.  Anyway thank you for reading and as always what do you think?

 

 

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